I wrote you a note,
because you know I stumble
over my words sometimes.
Left it on the counter
right next to your pills.
That way
I knew you wouldn't miss it.
I even sealed it with a kiss- Grit
your teeth for the remorseful parts.
Skip to the end
where I signed it with invisible ink
and one or two blinks
of the eye.

You know I have a tendency
to try to exchange meanings
in so much more than a few words.
Words only scratch open
the nagging wound
and it can't heal.
Sometimes it feels so surreal
when you're across the room
from me
and I communicate with just my eyes.
Some see
the swirl of browns
like autumn came early.
But only you,
only you and I
have an unspoken understanding.

I look out at the buildings,
out as far as I can.
Just so I can remember
just how small that I am.

That I'm a speck in this world,
and an ant to this earth.
The universe don't notice
it's got one more birth.

Who am I to change
the way that the world spins?
The ones with the most power
are the ones with the most sins.

They do awful things
and people turn a blind eye.
It's harder to tell the truth
than to tell a kind lie.

What do I matter
in this existence we call life?
I can't save the world
if I can't escape my own strife.

I go so unnoticed
as I walk this walk.
There's a chain around my ankle
and I can't open the lock.

The key's gotta be somewhere,
I'll search high and low.
When I find it I'll be free
and everyone will know.

I'll make an impact
then people will point a finger.
I'll scream from a mountain
then my voice will linger.

Sometimes I sit and think
that I was meant for somethin bigger
like standin and watchin
is the same as pullin the trigger.

I'll stand up and be somebody
like I know that I could.
I wanna make things better,
I just don't know if I would.

All I really know is
I can't let it be.
I can't shield my eyes
and pretend I don't see

The world turning before me
that's rife with pain.
I've got big plans,
hope they're not in vain.

So take a break from the lies,
you're only hurtin yourself.
Take all the judgments
and put them up on the shelf.

Maybe I'm only one person
but one plus one equals two.
If you and me can do this
then we'll have a real breakthrough.

Until then the world keeps movin
at a blistering speed.
When one person gets cut
we all start to bleed.

A line is the shortest distance
between two points,
and a smile is the shortest distance
between two people.
Yours reminds me of the first snowfall
in the wintertime.
Oh yes, you're a beautiful boy,
and you know that it's true
like I know the sound of a smile
in your voice over the phone.
Oh god, you're beautiful
but not on the inside.
You can't hide your darkness
for much longer,
but your secret is safe with me.
You have to learn to walk again
without someone to lean on.
You have to learn to open your eyes
for the very first time
and see that you're not the only numb one here,
but this is the way we get by.

Am I the only one who hears
The music that the waves make?
Sometimes the melody
Is so much more than I can take.

I’d like to have a rest
And get out of this place.
I’m running to stand still,
losing this foot race.

The inside wants out,
I’m begging to be free.
I’ve been hiding all these years,
A shield unintentionally.

I drown myself in words
to go to somewhere better.
I’ll read them later,
'cause I’m sending myself a letter.

And I’ll date it for the future
'cause today’s looking bleak.
How can I take myself seriously
When my whole life is tongue-in-cheek?

It’s a big joke at best
So that’s why I pick up my pen.
I’ll erase what’s been done
Until I do it again.

It’s an endless cycle
Of hurting and healing.
If only I could cut my nerves
Then I’d have no feeling.

Verse:
Stumbling into the spotlight,
your blue eyes pierce through me.
Ohhh like the sun slicing the sky
in the early morning sunrise.
I'll roll over to find
you looking back at me
with those eyes.
Thooooose eyes,
they do me wonderrrrs.
They're my frost on the rooftop,
the icicles hanging below.
And they drown out the chaos
in this too-big-world..

Chorus:
Oh do you do you do you
know what it's like
to be me staring back at you?
Oh can't you can't you can't you
freeze time with that look
of ice?

Verse:
Staggering onto center stage,
your blue stare surrounds me.
Oh like the ocean's sapphire gleam,
the kind that turns heads,
and makes people point,
only betterrrrrr.
'Cause they're mine to keep
and mine to adore.
They open a door
to a place I always knew was there.

Chorus:
Oh will you will you will you
keep me hooked
on that fleeting glance?
You know what you do
but you choose to ignore
how you have me so wrapped up into you.
But can't you can't you can't you
take me back to the day
I met you and your blue eyes.